Can.YoU.HeAr.Me

2009-03-04T02:49:00.011+08:00

Had been transforming my sketch to digital

and the outcome of it I’m satisfied.

Although I did edit the image here and there to make it looks better.

Never emphasis too much on details like I always do on paper.

Tadah!

These were what I created a few weeks ago :

Actually there purpose to have 1 more of it

but I think I've save in the wrong format

The colour comes out weird

eeee

Gotta edit again later

Nites!

*Check out my facebook soon

will be loading some/all of my drawing

Clearing laptop stuff

2008-10-30T22:20:00.004+08:00

update update update!!!

Yupps....ok...here it goes =)

PP Presentation

Yes!!!Finally done and over with PP on wed.Feel so great. Not that scary after all. 3 advisors to 1 student.Manage to make the advisors interested in whatever I speaking. That's a good sign cuz they asked questions. . To all my other friends who haven have their presentation: Good luck for your PP presentation. Just know your stuff and no worries. If need notes to remind yourself, you are please to do so wor ^^( but i never use any=P)

Shop and eat

Accompany Liming to bugis to shop for yy's birthday present.Then both of us went to bedok 85 to meet up with jas, yy and joseph for dinner. Ate quite a lot haha so seldom of me eating so much. And yy is very random cos he mistaken me for another person and scared me quite a number of times with his words..OMG!!!LOLx =_=|||

Home sweet home after that

Drawing

Took 3 weeks complete a portrait drawing of a female. 1st attempt to it. So off balance. Will put up soon to let you all see how weird it is....Eeee...but I only love the pair of eyes I drew out of the others.

2T's

Jumping for joy when received your letter attach with the negatives and images. Thanks for taking time to Stanley park to take nice images for me..Hehe cos I requested before you all left.Hope you all enjoy the view there as much as I do.Rmb to go every seasons, the view are really different every season. Enjoy your schooling and Christmas worx ^^

Enjoying my holidays

Bye~

2008-09-25T23:56:00.010+08:00

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EC Bday!!! Have a mini celebration for him at pizza hut even though it just consists of 5 people – MH, EC, LM, Jas and me. But still we had some fun ^^

After dinner, went to esplanade to cam- whore. Sorry to spoil some of the pictures due to my shaky hands =(…but hope you all like the way it turn out for some of the pictures ^^

Lots of emo-ing pictures taken for them and some I took when they were look elsewhere…lol xD

Wonderful outing pictures~

Like this picture lots^^

Enough lighting and contrast

All of us that night!

MH trying hard to emo..haha =P

Jas~ when I took this-__-???

Feel so happy to help people take pictures again^^

You see, feel and take

2008-09-10T01:28:00.004+08:00

Google Chrome

Yes! I've downloaded it. It simple nice and effective. It looks like a full screen browser on my windows. The tabs are interestingly place too - at the top . Oh ya...the logo for google chrome looks weird to me. Maybe is the colour etc. It looks like a pokeball....haha...did they got inspired by it?

Wanted to dump IE for a every long time but there are still some stuff work better on IE so bo bian cannot completely dump it. Firefox3 as tested by some of my friends, they said it's not as good as before. It's slow so never install that.

Yea...google chrome is seriously loading fast man.No kidding man! Loving it. Save my time on research etc.

By the way, lots of things happen during my 3 weeks of school holiday which I've yet to blog. My school have started for 4 days still not bad. Bad is that there are going to be more codings to do =( But nvm still fun! Don't go bonkers and I'll be glad XD.

Head back to sketching =)

Bye~

2008-08-29T00:27:00.003+08:00

Weeeee~ FINALLY!!!
I've gone to 2902 Gallery today
See lots of superb photography
Before meeting jas and liming out for dinner
They both are like zzZZzz
Sure burnt a lot of midnight oil till the next morning
Poor thing =(
But it's okay
It's your holiday le
Sleep more rest more work more slack more too
Hahaha

This few days had been raining on and off
And I'm mad and cold
Started off drinking in the middle of the night for warm =P
Luckily mama never found out that one bottle missing
Now is to wait till daddy home to see if he realize it's missing
Just a small bottle I think wun die bah =P

Next is eating ice cream on raining day
Hehe...i like and always did it on constant rainy day
Bought a tub of mint with chocolate chips ice cream
Cos cold + cool(due to the mint) = refresh
And I'm eating away half a tub myself
Wah~ first time ever in a night
Wakekeke ^^

In the end I only can conclude my rainy day night :

" Enjoy the cold and darkeness in the middle of the night "

Yes! It's a enjoyable one ^^
I'm not in a emo crappy mood
Simply enjoyment

2008-08-25T00:35:00.003+08:00

Cold~

It's raining for the past few days

Been hiding under my blanket to warm myself

Floor is so untouchable *cold*

I need to reconsider to sit on the floor on this day

My house?

Not a freezer but windy

Ah~eeeyer

But one good thing is.....

My fingers are cold...freezing cold

Able to go around and scare people

Haha =D
One touch can freak the person out

Mumbling among them to warn on my cold fingers

Saded =(

Till they start to complain about my cold fingers grabbing them

Cos they're feeling cold too

My bad...sorry

Hai...

MONDAY!

= Blues Day

= Not my day

= brainless day

Let's chase the BLUES yea?

Goodbye, Monday Blue~

BULLSHIT !!!

Wahahahah~

Randomness occurs

2008-08-13T23:26:00.009+08:00

27 days since I last blog. So let’s start blogging ^^

Ended my 2.1 semester yesterday. Seem faster than in year 1. Learn a lot from the faci (Joseph, Senneth and Cavvy). Enjoy my class too. They are so fun to be with everyday. Everyday so happening in class, totally not bored at all.

Last week of school, faci treat the class please? Haha =). Indeed they treat but too bad not the whole class was here. So let’s see the treating session.

Guess whose the faci?

Ben and Jerry time!

Presenting the ice cream to the faci

Lastly W65L class photos

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Funny conversation I had in class with Sebest K on friday ( last day of school too). I superly had problem with him since he stepped into the class.

Early morning

Sebest: 指什么指？*Cos I noticed he change bag*

Me: 什么指（纸）？厕所很多。。。自己去哪啦！

Sebest: *Smiling and show face*

Afternoon

Sebest: You have sharpener ?

Me: No..use pen knife to sharp..take from my pencilbox

Sebest: Pen knife?

Me: You duno how to sharp ah? Disturb people duno how to sharp pencil

Sebest: *Explaining*

Me: Okok la...help you sharp

After school

Can't remeber what I said to him made him a bit pissed off. But I confirm I did disturb him again.

Sebest: I dun wan to be in the same class as you!!!!

Hmm....tat's a good one

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End of post for tonight ^^

Wait for my next post bah

Most probably will be on my drawing and photoshoot pictures

2008-07-17T00:02:00.001+08:00

Saw Li Ping (大萍果) today!!! Happy happy xD. Early in the morning about 10 plus coincidentally. Way too long did I saw her. * Actually not too long, just on Jun Hong’s bday but never chat much..hehe* Before she alight the bus she told me 记得要想我哦！
Haha…so familiar to hear this again from her. See ya soon! Maybe this sat in band? __?

Anyway, JL had a bet with me! He said that I will smoke (on my own will) within my next 2 years! Duno what made him said that…cousin you need a brainwash? ^^. I’m like wad the….you wanne bet? I’m freaking sure I will win the bet, but must be practical of cos. So if JL lose, he gib me S$10 (dunwan HK$10 hor) haha. Likewise I will pay him S$50 if I lose. Why more? Cos I die die know and confirm will win the bet!

Cousin JL start saving! I will claim my money from you after 2 years….wahahahaa xD
LOL!

2008-07-13T23:53:00.001+08:00

Fri night came home late about 0028 to be exact. Got lock outside the house by mama.Haiz….AGAIN!!! Sleep outside the corridor for 4 hrs this time. Also, my wrong though. Since Dad came home from business trip, I’m always using the advantage to come home later and later. Because I always know that Daddy the kind soul will always help me to open the door.

This time NO…Dad was ‘con’ by mama not to open the door for me. So sad = (. Spam dad’s and mama hp so does the house phone and doorbell for once. I give up in the end cos it like 1am, did not want mama to open door just to scream at me. Ended up sms idiot Lynn ask her to tell me the mi mi (secrets) that she told my mama that allow me to stay over at her place for one of the night at one of the day. Halfway, that idiot stopped sms me. Think she drank le, always the case want.

Then accidentally send the sms to boy boy. And really thank you for accompany me for the night just with sms-es. Thank you thanks you!!! Really miss you lots lots. Only way to get to you now is through handphone. Because I don’t get to see you on msn assume you busy bah. That night really made me feel like a catching up session with you ..feel so great and nice. Still missing you =)

2008-06-25T21:52:00.002+08:00

Wahahahaha.....
So shiok to strike off To-Do List one by one
Means lesser and lesser things to do =D
More and more things coming my way =(
Fruitful day!!!!

Bad that I'm a procrastinator
Loves to pile up work until I don't wish to do
Only to force myself to slowly complete the work
How???
Move about the house or bring it out to do
But NOT AT MY STUDY TABLE!!!! =P

Wish that i don't over tired myself again
Faint at home unknowingly
AND I STILL GO SCHOOL
even though I'm late for class

Lalalala~
Continue to complete my
To-do List asap

Will not disturb friends these few weeks
Everyone busy with own stuff
I'm learning new programme

2008-06-18T00:13:00.009+08:00

MONDAY for FLASHY!!!

School starts since Mon. No Monday BLUES for me. Only a bit restless and lay on the table while the faci is talking on how to go about doing flash. Simply ones.

So this is the end product of the flash by my team.

'City on fire with helpless robots"

Shafiq – moving cloud n putting in music
Halim – create fire
Joseph – masking n yellow robot
Baoyan – couple robots
Me – Mr greeny emo robot

Thanks Shafiq for compiling all of our work and keep doing editing to it. Let’s continue to play with flash!!!! N share share information and knowledge.

TUES for SEMIOTICS!!!!

Looking for interesting ad again. Know what the meaning behind the ad, good or bad. Kinda of sadist cos will start to critize it. Irony may also occur. Good ad leave a good impression and so does a bad one. OHhhhh MAN....so what is good or bad....dpdp???

Use the monkey-proof ad for presentation. Find it funny and the actions very retard. Tat ad make my day cos problem a bit dry for the day.

Watch the making of the ad too.It was just as funny xD

2008-06-03T22:54:00.010+08:00

Let's Pictures do the Talking

Morning sun outside my corridor ( 7+ sun)

In school library ( 9+ sunshine)

Light above my head ( Like shape of an eye)

On my way to city from arts museum

Evening Esplanade

Haha..make me think of One Republic song : Stop and Stare.

Drawing in public very uncomfortable, and this was done quickly. Afraid this person would notice me looking at him. Done during one of the lunch hour at coffee bean.

My artwork recently. The bridge between Fullerton hotel and Maybank. 3 weeks past and I only manage to complete till here. A bit slow and my patience are running dry. Especially when it comes to sketching.

2008-06-03T22:25:00.002+08:00

First day of school holiday starts today. Went back school to baby sit some secondary school kids for their event for a week with my friends. Nothing much happen thou. First day mah. Warming up day. But that not the point I want to say…just some random information to kick start with ^^

Lunch conversation was random and fun. One of the topic was on F.E.A.R !!! Sebest was saying that he played until vomit and started scolding vulgarities even his dad also. Best still, he's playing it about 2am when the environment is so cooling and he is feeling intense. Big contrast leh. Next was Xiang Rui. He more POWER! Sleep also sees ALMA until he wake up immediately feeling scared. Wahahaha…..Maybe I should really play that game and test my guts again. Let it be my next favorite game after Silent Hill ^___^??? To me, I think F.E.A.R was scarier lo compare to Silent Hill. File size too big for 3 games of it, laptop cannot take it. Play it some other time but first gotta get hold of the files =D. Weeee….

Extra information on F.E.A.R :
(Hot game in the class now. Haven lay my fingers on the game yet. Hehe. Interesting game.How interesting???Hmm….mixture of silent hill, halo and counter strike. Silent hill sound effect, halo kind of map which some may go giddy with after a few rounds and counter strike which need to shoot your enemies and ghost. Most interesting of this game is to see ALMA. She will appear from nowhere and pop in front of your screen when you are concentrating on your game. This make a lot of my friends freak out so do I .What does ALMA looks like? Play the game you will know. Not suitable for the weak heart. It’s freaking horror and creepy from sound effect to graphic. My class is playing it everyday on the projector with sound effect on to the max.)

Finally gotta know how to use the wireless Xbox controller. HAPPY ^^ How??? Of cos by Xinhui’s logic of: Anyhow press any buttons lo sure got one to be able to work. HAHA … Noob hor? I first time using Xbox wireless controller so cannot blame. =( Feeling paiseh also for using my own logic. Keep connecting to other people game instead of my own game. He needs to tell us thrice that we are connected to his game. Sorry to make him unable to enjoy his game.

And we were late for meeting with Joseph the faci.

2008-05-26T22:49:00.019+08:00

Pictures For The Day ^_^

Pictures loaded post!Sorry if it wasted a little of your time for the pictures to load. Here are only some of the pictures taken. Mostly in black and white. ( All these images are taken for web multimedia wk 7).

So here go the pictures for the day! ^^

Motorbike duno whose one -_-???

What r u looking at?

Rush with his F.E.A.R game

Abu

Ayiee with the tripod stand

Below : Some over exposure pics

Small shadow: Joseph

Big shadow: Salli

Daryl n Rush

Abu n Joseph climbing fence

SALLI !!!

There a still quite a lot of nice photos taken by my class mates. But just way too many pictures.

Will load some of it if i have the time. If not maybe I will create a flickr account and dump all the pictures in there so some of you can view it.

Hmm....will consider.....

2008-05-14T22:33:00.005+08:00

BLUR n PISS MORNING

Feeling so pissed off this morning (9.15 to be exact) with a loud and long ting dong at my doorstep. Fell asleep at about 3 last night. Ahh…no school today still wake me up from my sleep. Hate it.!!!

Haven opened the door. Already hearing people yatata yatata outside with an accent I never heard before. The don’t care and half awake me just opened the door. Huh huh huh so long den got what they saying. =.= Two Vietnamese guys were here to look for dad. Oh my tian!!! He just went out. So, I just ask them to call my dad instead and they went off.

Fully awake after that and my mind start to think of pile of work on my table. How I’m I going to clear it one by one? -___-???? Burn it all and don’t need to do *wishfully thinking* LOL…..

When can I go flying again? Common language to strangers are SMILE ^___^ chase the awkwardness away. Make your day with a smile!

2008-05-13T00:09:00.000+08:00

Tirdness

Oh my!!! This is the first time I’m really really so tired. Eyes are closing soon n my mind is totally shut off. Zombie in the house yoz!! Haha..But still being stubborn n persistent, trying hard to absorb the information in the marketing books with rock music on xD to keep myself awake awhile more. I know marketing stuff is a bit on logic but need to prepare to interview for a small company with no analysis found on the internet makes me gonne do some homework.

Videos Videos n more videos to watch. Article article n more articles to read. Digging information for report. Less questions to ask, save time to produce quality work.

Still crafting out the interview questions carefully. Cos business people are careful and sensitive to the words or language use, so I must be double carful n sensitive. Don’t wanne offend any of them. If not later end up like Mas Selamat on the run ^_^ Choice of words come in place. Hai...so ma fan!!!

Offline soon. Doze off to sleep

2008-04-28T22:58:00.006+08:00

THANK YOU !!!!

Got a ride to school from Marly. On the way, I didn't chat with her much too. Don't get her distracted while driving. And because of me she need to switch her radio channel to channel 5, previously she was listening to some Malay channel. So sorry about that.

We were early to school so we managed to catch a bite before our lesson started off for the day.

The faci stepped into the class and I continued to eat. Did not care about his presence as he came in early. Eat in front of his face. Haha =D

Got K.Sebastian to help me buy lunch. Lazy to go down. Haven yet to settle the programming task for the day. And he bought me my lunch plus a can of coke which I didn't ask for. Thanks ah...I don't drink coke everyday even though you people always see me drinking coke. All thanks to the vending machine cos all other drinks were sold out except for coke. So 2 weeks of drinking it ? About there la. I think I will be sick of drinking coke soon. I will say eee =_=

2008-04-28T14:23:00.001+08:00

Work is piling up unknowingly until I wrote a list down out of random.

-Project
-Photo shoot on Singapore scene
-Drawing for some up coming competition
-Final theory test
-UTs
-Research
-Help daddy dye hair

Haven reach 10 and here comes my enemies: Procrastination, Self –doubt, Obligation, Perfectionism, and Judgementalism. All the above are so time consuming. Need the right mood to get things going smoothly.

Hmm…good to see so many things to do after some time. But sad to say that I will have less time for my friends. It’s okie! Xinhui will give whatever time I have just to have a break for myself and join you friends for any lunch, dinner, tea break etc even fun!

Happy happy to be chatting with Jean after so long. About 3 years? Busy her with attachment and up coming project. Complaining about attachment. Haha…nvm got me here to listen to you rant. Chill out soon with you!

Oh and sorry Dan. Call me when I’m online the other day but never really chat with you much. Lost in my own thoughts so sorry feeling guilty now =X. Nice to have you calling me once in awhile even though you are living in the other part of the world now. Help me to say HELLO to your gf too..Hehe..Both must take care k?

Art lesson was fun on Saturday. Students posing while standing on the chair. The rest gotta draw their actions out. So cute. Got ask by the kids to pose while they draw me. But too bad, I was late for class and gotta rush my painting. Sat with my favourite and naughty boy that day. But I moved to sit behind him after that. Worrying he might anyhow move about and spill the cup of water on my painting.I will have a hard time saving my painting.

It’s a pity that I never took some of their nice drawing. Will take some photos once I got hold of the camera.

Gotta continue with my research
I’m here to rant
Haha =]

2008-04-12T00:36:00.003+08:00

My CLASS!!!!

School...still alright

With all the fun loving people

Even with just 5 gals

Every week of seeing a certain students once

Way too cool with our bargaining skills

Bargain rj too be extent

Asking for early release for talks and break

Breaking the rules for being 'creative'

Going around the school for one of the module

In search for posters for presentation

Taking out poster without permission from wadever notice boards

Saying goodbyes to one another

Went madness

It's getting louder and they started screaming

LOLS

It haven pass the first week

And I'm having such a class

Continue to enjoy for the next 2 weeks

Before things get tougher n spoil the fun

2008-04-03T23:06:00.004+08:00

Unsure

Kids kids kids should I go and teach you all ?
Still thinking of this question

All are cute and adorable kids
Yet a devil and a angel in digest
So does every human
When quiet n seriously doing your work, you’re an angel
Devil only comes when they start to provoke others
Vulgarities flying everywhere
Getting louder each time
Aiyo...very noisy leh..haha
But kids are kids
The nosier, the merrier
But adults will have headache later on

Currently having 2 lessons together with the kids
Being where still the oldest student in the class
Sandwich between adults and kids (ranging frm 4 to 13 years old)
Kids see you kind; bully you trying to destroy ur work
Touch touch ur drawing here and there
With hands fill with oil pastel
Eyes of envy
On the other hands,
Adults demand more from me if working
Cos I'm responsible for their kids education
It's a tough one
Never think of becoming a teacher all this while
Kids are hard to deal
Parents are even harder to deal
But kids’ imaginary is superb
They can tell you imaginary story of theirs and make you laugh
That I can't deny

See how it goes bah...=)
Haven comes to a decision
Good n bad to it

2008-04-02T22:43:00.005+08:00

Unknown Wish - Long way to go! =)

Mama pester me this few days to go take up musical courses. She even told me what courses to take eg: guitar, piano,violin, dancing etc...Sound good right? Part of her suggestion to my birthday present. This is not my plan yet. But for the next few years, I don't think I gonna request for any present. Cos this year birthday, I told myself that I wan my parents to clear up all their liabilities as living now is not easy. I also have a birthday wish that I really need to work hard on, no one can help me with it. This wish can say is an ambitious one for a small size me. Trying but still see the impossible in it..hai

This wish is......I want to bring the whole family to Vietnam, Switzerland, Europe or Canada for holiday. The least I can do is able to save up to buy the air tickets. This is also the reason why I'm keeping track on the pricing. Seem like now only able to save up to one ticket if pricing dun increase much......3 more to go...must jia you.

Before that I was selfish...thinking of saving up and go on holiday alone or with a few friends. Never give a thought for my parents...guilty..always make them mad and worry. Parents always know that I wish to be away from home for awhile. But thinking of them make me pause and think again the decision I made for myself without them in the picture. It always make me abandon all my thoughts I've plan beforehand. As I always tell myself : Go must go happily if not don't go. Will worry here n there n won't enjoy the trip.

Unknown challenges is before me, what lies at the end? Unknown but adventurous to find out. Still exploring.....way to go!!!!

2008-03-30T23:11:00.005+08:00

简单的生日

祝我生日快乐

没有蛋糕，无所谓

没有生日歌，无所谓

没有party night, 无所谓

没有礼物和卡片，也无所谓

我的生日照样过，我的一天也就这样过

朋友们

不要因为以上我写的而伤心

因为我要谢谢你们sms,msn 或面对面的祝我

还因为是我的生日把所有的decision making 都给了我

可是我还是说 Anything

让你们伤痛脑筋了

对不起了 =_=

2008

我和我简单的生日

2008-03-22T00:04:00.020+08:00

SMILE (=

Yeah yeah
Manage to kill the 'monster' in Liming
Make her a bit happier
Emptiness feeling die off a little
I know I'm childish here
But I dun care
Can make one feel a bit happier
I'm happy

Cheer her up wif some of my silly drawings
As I'm lost for words to tag her
a flower for her..no where sell it...hahaaa....

Smiley faces (=

Thanks Liming for this
Love ya friend!

Smile everyday worx....
Chase the unhappiness or emptiness away
Just the same as an apple a day
Keeps the doctors away...
HAHAHAA.....
I'm getting lame and random
That's all...

2008-03-18T01:03:00.004+08:00

REAL?

Sometimes when you avoid being real for a period of time, the fakeness just gets to you. It’s starting to bite into me. Being in the real world more, my worldview has dangerously shifted to become one where I try to make a good impression, to say the right words, to be politically correct, to make those-who-matter happy. But that's lying to myself, I am not like that, neither do I want to be.

Is this so call wearing a mask to face the world?

2008-03-15T14:31:00.011+08:00

Yeah!!! It's cloudy

It's like FINALLY

Rain rain go away

On friday n today

Yeah yeah!!!

Welcome cloudy day

I'm Loving it =DDD

Friday (14/3)

Went back changkat band wif jas, ming han, eng chian n liming

Play quite a number of pieces

Feeling great

Although I'm sight reading most of the pieces

Felt a bit weird when having combine with the juniors

Cos lack of communication not generation gap..haha

But still they welcome us

Each time went back to band

We really must admit that we are old but young at heart

Haha...why why??

Cos the sec 1s coming in this year is born in 1995

N we were like wow....

Like just left the band not long ago only

But of course

Within the alumni ourselves we will always say we are young

Bleah =P

Looking forward to next Sat alumni band practise

Yahooooo.....

Can get to see the different batch of alumni n playing music together

How nice can that be!

Excited...muhahaha

Also I can get to see Chermaine again

Yeah yeah....

Too long never chat n meet her up

Hope she can make it
Oh my~

I'm getting excited

Went to suntec to rot and slack as usual

Some pictures taken

End of the day

Looking forward to everyday

Wheeeeee......

2008-03-13T22:20:00.001+08:00

RAIN RAIN GO AWAY

The weather has been absolutely detestable of late.
I hate the rain, and the ennui and gloom that it brings.
Every aspects of me do not go the way I want
Rains wash away worries and bring vacuity
Rain rain goes away…
Sun sun I want you

2008-03-08T01:16:00.001+08:00

Attending Godma’s wake alone
Insisting of going thou parents went the day before
Met her once and left a great impression on me

Flash back caught me while sitting there
Made me think of my grandma’s wake
Way back when I was in kindergarten.
Images flow in vividly
Hospital, doctors, nurses , the long corridor, the fast footsteps, the close doors, whispering among the people, the sad faces, heavy footsteps and lastly the me that was not allowed in.
The day the start of the wake to the end
No tears from me
.
.
.
.

Don’t want to continue
It’s too much for me to take it.

End here...

People choose to capture pictures of happiness
Leaving out the pictures of sadness
This time I’m being madness
Capturing faces of sadness
Comparing side by side with the pictures of happiness

2008-03-04T00:05:00.005+08:00

Sun ( 2/3 )

It’s drizzling. Went to East Coast Park with Jas. Liming and me cycling while Sylbest running. Took shelter twice due to a sudden heavy downpour. On the whole, it was great even though it’s a raining day. Thanks Sylbest !!! Thank you for driving us there and back to bedok mrt station.

Headed to Bedok Interchange hawker center for our dinner. With Jas going bonkers seeing Jonathan Leong in person beside her. Haha. Whole face blushing. So cute.

After that, took bus 35 to meet up with my parents at the expo. But..but…I miss the stop I supposed to alight. Then I ended up at Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal.Oh no!!! Luckily, that’s the last stop for that bus. Not too far from the expo. My parents were laughing and asking why I went there. I told them I was planning on a home run loh so went there and take a look =D. * If home run I also wouldn’t chose to take a ferry cuz lots of weird people n old ah peh. I also duno where will I end up at. Mama telling me if i have the ability then go lo.

Dinner, coffee, home =)

Sat (1/3)

Went to watch ‘The Leap Year’ with jas n liming. Really touching movies, but it did not make me cry though. Why??? Cos I had read the book before I think tat’s why never cry. Heartwarming scenes. This film is one of the best local films.

Meeting every leap year as a promise feels like you are living in an imaginary world of your own. Waiting n waiting for the next leap year to come by quickly. No communication devices to communicate n reach out for the other. The insecurity with the assurance of the promise is what makes one to wait for the one. Being hopeful that will meet up again.

The film makes me come to this:
My world won’t be worthwhile, if you didn’t appear.
Too bad that there isn’t make time for both to test what is forever
The feeling of missing becomes deeper, fluttered heart becomes broken.
At the end of the day, I’m still concern who you belong to
Today, my heart is a little grey
My heart become a season of falling leaves
I’m not sure how am I going to survive through the days n nights
As all the lights are out long before I realize
Will I be happier if you did not appear?
Cruelty of time destroy everything in a night n changes our life
And I’m still missing
Living in memories n waiting

2008-02-27T23:24:00.003+08:00

Out I Go....Come to Light

Finally after much thinking, I decided to quit the band. (Sleepless night to think to quit or not) With much guts, I wrote an email to inform. Well, I guess my ASL would have guessed it as I went MIA for 3 practices. One email sends to 4 people….scary!!! Written it in such a formal way. Don’t get use to it all a sudden.

Friends told me it’s a waste to let go, don’t I have any feel for it? Honest speaking, for this band is not as strong as before. Back then, I can quarrel with my parents because of band due to my grades, but not now anymore. No long hours of practices for me!!! Yeah!!! And some rubbish stuff will come along its way…But…but…I miss the long bus journey home at night and also the smell of the air which is different, much cooler. I like ^^.

2008-02-15T00:19:00.003+08:00

PS I LOVE YOU

电影散场后

一个人坐在位子上

突然一阵空虚

不是因为是情人节

也不是因为我一个人看电影

而是因为电影院一个人都没有

感到害怕

2008-02-12T13:35:00.000+08:00

时间太多的我又开始我的乱乱想
做一些超无聊的事情

开灯，关灯。
关灯，开灯。
反复做这同样的动作，
我看见眼前的一片黑和舜间的亮。
一时间，
蒙上我的双眼，又让我看清楚眼前的事物。
我不知不觉喜欢上开关灯的声音。

2008-01-22T23:59:00.000+08:00

Monday ( 21/1)
It's Jasline Bday today so as promise, I skip school to celebrate for her and the rest of the girls ( Li Ming, Crystal, Zi Jun and Hwee Ling).

Went to school to return lappy to my friend then went to TP to look for Jas. After that had Macdonalds near TP to eat breakfast with Jas's classmates (Patricia, Carissa, Shi Ning and Polly). Headed to Suntec after eating and both of us were very tired. Slack and walk around for the rest of the girls to call but no one pick up the phone....argh!!!! N Auntie is angry...hahax...But it's okie, at the end of the day....auntie enjoyed herself even though Li Ming, Zi Jun and Crystal left halfway as they still had other things on. Home after that.

Auntie~ time to chiong ur project and study for your test !!!! hahax =D

2008-01-17T19:39:00.000+08:00

It 7:40 now and I'm not in band but in TP lab with Jas project team (Patricia, Carrisa, Shi Ning, Derrick and Kelvin). Borrow a school laptop for her to do her report tonight. Can't borrow my laptop to her, need it for school tomorrow. Finished my stuff while waiting so surf the net and off we went for dinner, then home.

I lost the 'awesome' freak I drew, really miss it.First time I'm using a pen to draw while my classmates were presenting and I'm bored. Hope my friends find it tomorrow early in the morning and return it to me. Also, cleaner aunties don't clean the classroom so maybe it will still be there.

I hope n hope n hope that it will still be there in the morning.

2008-01-16T00:49:00.000+08:00

Start of band practice today after a week of break back from Taiwan performances. New music scores were given out = will be busy again practising for upcoming concert in April if nothing goes wrong. The concert master even reminded us that there are 14 practices to go before the concert. Wow! First band practice of the New Year he's already counting down, that's fast. I wish I did not heard it at all so that I can happily go to band and not be reminded of having concert to worry about. This time there is also a piece featuring the clarinet section so gotta practise hard in order to run every note which I see on the scores on my clarinet. AH!!!! Which also mean that I cannot cheat on notes le(eating up the notes when I can't play)....hahaha =P

Sat(12/1) went back for art lesson.Not in the mood tho but manage to complete my painting. My teacher asked what happened to me after looking at my painting. Then, I realised that my painting did not have a focus point, everything seemed so scattered. Add..add..add..edit..edit..edit...here is the finally painting

Von is asking why everytime I took pics so orange de

Because.... my table lamp. I uses orange light bulb

Haha...tats why at times look like the display on the shelf

2008-01-08T23:40:00.000+08:00

Okie! I'm back to blogging after so long
End of 2007 is celebrated in Taiwan with RPWS members
Enjoy everything from weather, performance, shopping etc
Great experiences.

Especially performing at the stadium at Chiayi which is 13 to 14 degree with strong wind blowing.Everyone was freezing cold n we were sharing n passing the heat bag around to keep each of us warm. Pity the guys lots.They borrow their blazer to the girls and they caught a cold themselves.We ( Patricia,me,Kenneth,Ronald and Jun Hao) were so cold that, we hugged one another and started jumping to keep each other warm.We were also treated warmly by all the organizers throughout the trip and well taken care by the advisers and our friends. Make some new friends from Thailand and Taiwan on the trip too.

Although end of 2007 was not celebrated with all my friends and love ones but I miss you people lots throughout my trip. Everywhere I went, I keep a look out for nice presents back for you people and only till the last day I bought something for myself. Hope you all like the presents you receiving soon..haha =)

Received 2 Christmas cards, 1 New Year card, 2 e-cards n lots of sms of wishes
Thanks all of you!!! Sorry did not reply all, not in Singapore that time.

New Year .... 2008
Start of the year bad news from cousin but nvm I'm getting better. School started a few days. I'm loving daddy always..haha...He bought champagne and wine to celebrate end of 2007 but he did not open it. Daddy waited for me back from Taiwan to drink it together as a family. Aww...daddy..Thanks!

I remember I made this statement in 2007
"Life is wonderful if you see it in your own ways "
And I want to add on
"Life is beautiful. And it is as ugly as how beautiful it is."
In any case, I'm just loving life...a life of no turning back...life that we dun wish to regret..though regretting about in life is inevitable...hahahaha

Wish everyone an excellent new year!!! As in, everything works out well.Super energetic....full of luck...lots of money....lots of opportunities....many ppl wooing u....no ppl booing u....always happy...zero stress....no burden....care free.....and i'll slap your face and shout! "HELLO!!! U THERE?" hahahahaha!!!!!( Just kidding)

RESOLUTIONS??? hahahaa
People are asking and I haven give a serious thought to it. I only know I have a lot of things I need to complete.Will blog it once I thought about it..hmm..mayb serve as a reminder or motivation but sure know cannot fulfill all...but will try. Be practical! haha =D

2007-12-20T00:46:00.000+08:00

The Paradox of TIME !!!!

The paradox of our time is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgement, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learnt how to make a living, but not a life. We added years to life and not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbour. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learnt to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small characters, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom.

A time when technology shows you what you need, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or just ignore it thoroughly.

TIME!
Are u a killer or a healer ?or BOTH?
I can't stop you.
But everyone is following your footsteps to see the better them or the worst of them each day
Hmm...
To me, you maybe the serial killer in everyone heart
Cos you can control how one feel : Anticipation, depression,happiness and saddness
So, should I just say
Let's have some FUN!!
Playing around with the feelings and time?
Even if it sucks big time at the end of your night.

2007-12-12T12:17:00.000+08:00

Really no life
Tied down with band this December
Which also means that my 3 weeks of holidays all on band
Yawn...

13 Dec - Prepare for open hse
17 Dec - Open House performance
18 Dec- Sectional till late evening
22 Dec - Tune in session
28 Dec- Visit sec sch band
29 Dec- Taiwan trip

Sherline wants to make her last performance a good want with us
So to fulfill her wish, I go band
Cassendra also, her last year in band
Really nice of her
Everytime help us to take music stands

Kenneth going NS soon
Don't know when only
He haven receive his letters
He's quitting school soon
To pursue his dreams in music
NS -> Canada -> Japan

I think this is the only reason for me to go band recently
Drag myself to go for practices
If not my hp will be flooded again without an email send
Pat please dun flood my hp
Okok..i will send email n cc to sue
Scared of you le of your constant reminder
Haha =P

2007-12-11T00:15:00.000+08:00

I just count myself lucky today.
Had a bad scare since morning.

On my way to school, there was this lady sitting opposite me sleeping on the bus. Not long after I also fell asleep while listening to my music. All a sudden I heard "Thump", I looked around. And what I saw.

I saw the lady on the floor. Poor thing.I think she hurt quite badly, seeing her keep rubbing her knees. Throughout the journey, she never sleep after that. As for Gabriel, I think he don't even knew the incident. He was so tired that he can't even bother =.=

Next was after school. Walking in the interchange, there was this guy in front of me. He knocked onto the information board that was right in front of him. I 'Ouch' for him cos he knock onto it damn hard that the information board still vibrate after the knock. He some more act as if nothing happen. Iron man...hahax

Last incident I saw to end this scary day.

It was raining heavily after I alighted. Instead of walking,I decide to take a bus home. While waiting for bus, I saw this man slipped and fell on his butt just to avoid the big puddle of water.Oh gosh!! His overall was wet.

I was hoping that none of these happen to me*crossing my fingers*
And yeah
It did not
That's end my scary day

2007-12-06T00:27:00.000+08:00

Did not attend band today
Instead I went to catch a movie with Jasline and Liming
Naughty me for skipping band again
Even though concert is coming this Sat

After school immediately went to meet Jas at TP
Waited for her at the bridge
And I saw a few familiar faces while waiting for her
Saw Liping, Eng Chian, Wei Cheng n KK

Went to watch 'Enchanted'
2nd time watching it
Worth watching it again
It was funny
There are twist n turn in the wonderful story
Nice songs and storyline
Great movie

Will be a bit relax n free after concert
So more posts will be coming up after that
Nites!

2007-11-27T00:15:00.000+08:00

Watch SAW 1,2 n 3 straight after I got home
This is my second time watching it
And I still find it gross and bloody
Still I finishing watching all three at one go
While watching, I still can laugh
I must have been crazy
SAW...simply killing one another for survival
No matter what one does to keep himself alive

Thinking how the director can stand it while filming the
movie
It so bloody gore lah
Don't himself think so
Wonder how SAW 4 this time
I think will be worst than the previous 3 movies
This time rated it R21
Means I can't go and watch it
Nvm...ask dad to buy
Haha
Btw, I was intro to SAW movies by my dad
He bought the dvds but never watch
Ended up I watch it -__-

Recently, I gone maddie again
Going around pestering people again
If not nuan-ing and wanting chao-ing for class
Lastly, wanting to watch THE ADDAMS FAMILY or HOME
ALONE
Wun get bored of watching it again n again
I think I'm going to search for the these 2 dvds soon

And I have rush out my 2nd painting
If not I will be behind the date due I've plan

2007-11-26T00:08:00.000+08:00

Alone week

Just came home from the airport
Send dad,mum n sis off
Not envy for parents for going 3 countries this month
For business not for holidays
Time are limited for them
Everyday is a business to them

Still,my sch holidays have not started
So unable to join them for the trip
Just too bad for me
Wanne know the sucky business world
That is tiring my parents out
Reality of the competitive world

Parents not home
No dinner
Eating alone
Who wanne accompany for dinner??
Can sms me or call
Hope I'm not too tired to eat too
Hehe

2007-11-21T12:45:00.000+08:00

Parents are going off to Shanghai.
Sis following along as she having holidays now.
4 days before I'll be alone
Hope no relatives would call to ruin my alone week

Last survivor days got ruin by them calling and calling to check on us
as sis told them parents not home.
It disrupt our life after that for 3 days
Call about 4 to 5 times in a day
So after that, I did not pick up all their call n let it ring for the nxt 2 days
I even pluck out the telephone wire
Cos got irritated
I was like mum don't worry us
You all worry for what
Parents plan our stuff before they left
They complain about me after mum back
Instead they got a scolding
=(

Too many things coming up
Wanting to clear all before next year
Still trying to slot everything properly
Not wanting to overwork myself
But gonna take care of myself
Cos I think flu-bugs is coming after me
RUN !!!!!....running away from it
Haha =D

2007-11-20T01:04:00.000+08:00

Reflection

Hate Me - Blue October

太多 - 陈绮贞

2007-11-11T23:38:00.000+08:00

Conclude For My Survivor Days

wooooooooooooOOooooOooooooooosh!
My parents are back!
Hail my parents!
Long Live my parents!
Anyway, super happy that they are back to rescue me!
They restores peace to my stormy life
You know what i wanna say....i noe u noe that u noe i noe u noe...
Haha =D
Super duper weird me
I think I'm too happy n high now =P

cool...survivor days FINALLY OVER!!!!
I can have my own time again wif my friends
Don't need for her to tag along n kpo wad we say
And I think my sis enjoyed herself too
Bring her to places she wants to go n i wanne go
Usually my parents dun bring us there often
Hope sis don't pester mum or dad to bring her there
Saying: Why sis bring me there but u don't? Why she can go but I cannot?
Den i will be like die liao *diao -_-
I'm in deep shit

Parents back is not a good sign for me
Sis start all her rubbish again
Black face
Throwing temper
Anyhow throw her stuff *dirty clothes ended up on my bed -_-
Bickering with me
Quarrel..etc..
Lots of rubbish from her
Just in one morning
Hai...
Parents tired after plane ride
Sis still like that
So to stop her
I shut my mouth
Be ignorant
Once she sian will stop all rubbish

But nvm
Think of parents safely back home
I'm more than happy
Lots of stories again from the wu lu wu lu place
Nice listening to it
But scary
But don't wish to live there and also to have my education there
That's definitely a NO!!
I will protest and think the best alternatives for myself
I will convince n convince them until they sick of listening to me and say okay
Haha =p
Cos I try it before and it works

To all my friends:
Thanks for all your love and concern to make me pass by every of my survivor days
Making me not so sian,nuan-ing and not so quite through the nites
And also helping me to take care of my hyper active and talkative sis
Sorry make each and every of you tired after a day out wif my sis
Then admit that yourself are 'old'
Think on the bright side k...
We may seem old but we are young at heart
Laughing always..crapping
Aniwae...THANKS A LOT ALL MY FRIENS
Cya soon for more fun out

2007-11-09T01:08:00.000+08:00

Survivor Day 6

Morning lots of people called

Damn irritating

Irritating me from my sleep

But hack care

Cos sis was hungry

Wake me up for breakfast

Still the same

Pancakes for morning

Having a late breakfast

Mum called too

Told us that dad was sick

Complaining about work too

Tired and having late nights

I can't do much but to listen

By listening to them may help to ease some of their load off their mind for the time being

But while listening questions came to my mind which i feel like asking mum

Ended up I did not ask

Cos I know I won't get an answer

She only will laugh or change the topic

The questions I want to ask mum are :

1. You at home also complain about housework, now accompany dad for work also complain.

which want you prefer? Home or to work?

2. How it feel to be able to work again and deal with people?

* I can confirm I will get the answers for these questions I asked without me asking. Sis will sure ask mum when she's back. Pestering mum and ask lots of questions than I do.

Actually, mum accompany dad this time to work for a purpose

Not just simply for work

But to see dad working environment too

And what's keeping dad work so late into the night

I think it's good anyway for mum to follow

If dad want to change working environment

Mum also feel safe for dad and at ease

It's also a good time for dad and mum to have their personal time too

Without us

Haha (=

Survivor days are ending really soon

I'm STILL ALIVE!!!

Not bored to death yet

Hehe

Not going to say much

Caught sis in action for cooking pancakes

Pics taken at survivor day 2

2007-11-03T02:54:00.000+08:00

Too peaceful night
Don't get use to it
But to on the radio loudly
Just to cover the peacefulness
Haven sleep yet
Waiting for the morning sun
BLUE sky
WINDY morning
And a PHONE CALL

2007-10-25T00:05:00.000+08:00

Everything is vague to a degree

You do not realise till you have tried to make it precise

- Thrown by Mr Amir after 6P-

When is the degree when I know is not vague?
When I know it is precise?
How to know it is precise?
What steps taken to make it precise?

Questions flow into me just by the 2 sentences
Just feel like throwing all these questions back at him
But kinda of useless to throw at him
Cos I don't get my answers at all
Every time as him questions he's not being precise
Keep asking us to think what we interpret as it is
Make us have no direction of thinking
Due to him we can go BONKERS!!
BONKERS! TIRED! SLEEP IN CLASS! =D

In actual PBL is Problem Based Learning
Now in school
We all say PBL is..
Pretend to Be Learning
=D

2007-10-22T23:41:00.000+08:00

Busy. Tired. Happy

Busy month for me

So many things happenings:

1.Design section t's

2.Practice for upcoming performance

-Youth park

- Dec concert

- Taiwan trip

*Hope nothing more than these!!!

3. Workpieces submission for collage

4. Plan for school holidays

BUT

Finally!

Finish my satisfied painting after 3 weeks? *think so bah

Happy Happy =D

Start to see some improvements in it

Comparing to all my previous drawings

Comments by teacher that my drawings techniques 'weird'

Bcos from far my drawing is nice

When you close up and take a look, it's nothing special

So every time she edit need to look from a far first

Then edit a bit here and there

After looking ,she only add the branches

LOL

Starting painting thought this will fail to 'stand out' *unique*

Due to use of too much water to create certain effects

Trying out new things

Ended up

Happy with the result =)

Looking through some of my friends' blog

Found this *can't rmb whose*

Stun by this equation for a moment

TOTALLY STUN!!

And this equation is by YOU!
What a good use of math and apply it!

With logic

But this don't apply to all girls

I think something might had lead you to think this way bah

Or simply for fun

Joker you

Who knows what you thinking!

Funny ideas in your head

2007-10-14T23:24:00.000+08:00

To all my friends :
Next time if you are not coming to school
PLEASE!
DON'T TELL ME!
You will make me wanne skip school
The temptation of skipping
Skip skip skip
Lalalaa~
No psycho also hor
Cos i have already decide to skip school
At the 15 n 16 week
Who wanne skip wif me can skip la
But i think is almost everyone bah
=D
Bye~

2007-10-12T00:04:00.000+08:00

Got back my grades for some of my modules for last weeks
Hmm...some improvement in some module
Not too bad
Especially for Enterprise module
Simply just improve on my presentation skills
which he had commented for me
Got an A grade for it
After 3 weeks of trying
Cos this faci demand for individuals are high
In addition he's observant and a listener to our presentation
One of the comment he given me was that
I'm speaking too fast that he had missed a few part of my argument during presentation
I was like really arh?
No faci comment that on me
He's the first one
LOL =D
Will try to refelect on myself =)

But the bad thing is...
I got a B grade for my culture module
I only got myself to blame
All due to me being distracted by what I'm finding on my lappy
Trying to be funny with her = playing around with my grades
Oh no!
I got good comments from her all these while
and to me getting A for this module is easy
Do research and confident presentation
That's all she's asking for
But just for that distraction of mine I got a B
Lesson to learn for myself
No testing of the faci !
She determine your grades for the day

2007-10-10T23:29:00.000+08:00

No motivation

No motivation to do lots of things
I have listed my wish list
But with my no motivation now
How am I going to fulfill it?
Someone help me
Wake me up!

Sometimes, I have alot of work (like now)
But I just don't want to do anything
Just wanna sit back and do nothing.
Even I know I will get bored

Sometimes, I got lots of work
I kept doing and doing
But there is like a hollow dark hole somewhere inside me.

Sometimes, I woke up early in the morning
But I do not want to wake up or open my eyes
I am just trying to run away from everything.

Sometimes, I woke up and sit up on my bed
It’s a new day and I should feel fresh
But instead I feel lost
Not knowing what to do

Everyday to me is a drag
Drag n drag n drag
WHY do I feel this way?
Hate the feel of it
Eeeek

2007-10-07T22:36:00.000+08:00

This few weeks not that of a good mood
Lots of unhappy things happen
I had been going to the hospital to and fro
One is my Freddy's death
The other is my dad
Not going into details
Luckily had a breather on wed
That i really need it very very much

Nice to see Lynn sister mood getting better
That's good
Let's go run the streets or roads again =D
Tired sit down on the roadside
Let the passing vehicles dry the sweat of ours
That day i knew you are hiding your sadness
You run and cried
After that swept it off with your towel
But you can't hide from me
Your eyes were red and i said nothing
But nvm
At least you feel better after that
Good for you
Yeah!

Busy busy me
Gotta do my drawings
Any nice scenery just send me
It's for my application to one of the art collage in London
I'm trying out for fun and challenge
No intention to go there study yet
But just want to find out what is the popular arts in there now
So simply just trying luck
Haha =)
So just send me whatever nice pics you all have

I need to pick up my sense of direction again
Not wanting to lose everything
Life passby me in a swift
I have no time to lose
Need to cherish every opportunities i have
Swallow all the comments people give
No matter good or bad
Just take it and improve on

It challenges one mind and emotions to accept lots of things
Who cares if its old or new
Just blend it together
New things will appear

2007-10-01T01:36:00.000+08:00

Lynn sister must stay strong!

Freddy has gone without you
And out of your life forever
Your Relationship end with a full-stop now
You really must accept the reality that it is
Friends and his family all feel the same like you now
Sad
Terrible
Hopeless
Helpless
Nothing we can do to get him back to us
Gone forever

Lynn sister
I really don’t want you to repeat what I had done before
Really really don’t one to see
Just like what happen when Yi Feng dies overseas
You know what I did
Roy also know
You know how hurtful to see one in this state
It is really mad and terrible
Getting me back to normal state
I know it’s silly for me to do that whenever I recall
But it’s how much the person means to you
Worthless!
And you will agree with me
Just remember the happiness and most joyful moments you both share
Happiness and joy always win the sadness in you
Think of my lame equation and you will know
Don’t know ask me
Sadness just let time heal for you
Crying make you feel better just go ahead
If you need someone to accompany you
Will be there for you if I can always
If you need someone to talk can call Roy
He’s more than willing to even he’s busy
No doing of silly things
PLEASE!
I don’t want to lost a friend again
NO! NEVER!
I don’t want to repeat myself again
With the kind of emotions and feelings
Crying and keep silent without days and nights
I DON'T WANT TO LOST ANYONE CLOSE!!!!!

Stay strong and live on with your life
Friends will be here to ease your pain a little
Don’t think so much
Move on Lynn

2007-09-27T00:35:00.000+08:00

HAPPENINGS !

Long long post
Haha

Wed (26/9)

So suay today again! 3 days in a row I am group to a team with 3 guys and me the only gal. All guys talking session in the team then my class no gal talking session de. All so guai de do their work if not chatting on msn. I’m bored lo, so I play Cs alone not with the class today as all so busy no one create network to play. Hope tomorrow I won’t be the only gal in the team again. If not this week I break my record le. 5 days in a row in a 3 or 4 guys team with me the only gal. Never have this in my life before but it’s alright all the team mates I can get along with so still happy-go–luckily in the team. Hope tomorrow will be a better day! NO PAIN and EMO ! MAKE MY DAY PLS !

Tue (25/9)

Nose pain so no intention of going band but meet up with Jas n crystal as its mid-autumn festival. We bought sparkles, lanterns and candles to play. Sadly, Liming can’t join us. Jas burnt down two pucca lanterns accidentally. Haha =). Will update the pics soon once I get hold of it from Jas. Overall, fun and enjoying day!

Mon ( 24/9)

Meet Roy for dinner with Sean, WZ and CL for dinner at airport. Easier for Roy we think. 3 days zooming past, just back to settle some of his stuff. Sad to hear this, 3 days. But its okay! Will wait and anticipate his next visit home which I think it will be soon as school holiday there is around Dec. Sad to say goodbye again but happy to see him even it’s just a short 3 days. Talking craps session was fun. Making each other angry and laugh again seem so long we make each other and people around mad at us but yet happy.

The words you told me before you left I can’t accept it. Sorry. I don't feel regretful of what I said. We have known each other for a very long time and you know what kind of a person I am. You know better than anyone that I hated being forced, but you still did that. You have pushed me to the verge of this friendship. This friendship between us is really special and if you really don’t want to continue being friends, then I shan't force you. I always treated you like my brother and will always be it. Nothing more and nothing less. But gonna let time carry the feeling of awkwardness away. Hoping things can get back as it use to be when you are back home again.

Cya soon!

Sat (22/9)

Received called from Roy saying he reached Singapore at about 4am. I was like HUH? Really? He did not inform anyone at all and it gave me a big surprised because I was still half awake from my sleep. HaHa =D. Thanks! I’m still the first want you call every time you come home even though you have so many good buddies here waiting for you. But after me I know who you will call next *ahem it’s a guy la btw. =) Can’t meet him that day because it’s my senior, Eng Chian bday. Finally know when is your bday le after so long . Heard that Ming Han threaten Eng Chian out when he was working, saying that Sir was here. Wahaha =D. I think Eng Chian was scared out of its wits bah when he heard it. If without Ming Han tactics, I don’t think we can get him out to celebrate his bday.

2007-09-23T16:26:00.000+08:00

Last night can't sleep well
Wake up and finish reading '月亮里来的男孩'
Nice storybook
Bought for long didn't read until last night
Finish it at about 6am
Will illustrate on the book in Chinese
so its easier to understand

里面的男孩天生就没有痛觉,任何伤痛,甚至骨折,都带不来一丁点疼痛.所以他并不抵抗那些人用他来做各种实验,解剖他的身体,了解人类对各种伤害的反映.因为他没有痛觉,所以他麻木的地看着这一切,甚至最后,他竟然开始解剖自己,于是他成了一个优秀的外科医生.

可是后来,他喜欢上了一个女孩,代价就是,他开始体会到了,什么叫做痛.

我们要听到过大风呼啸过?才知道那就是风.
我们要看到过白云漂浮过山脉,才知道那就是云.
我们要爱过,才知道那就是爱.
我们要痛过,才知道痛也是因为有了爱.
(taken from www.douban.com )

Before closing this book
A question struck me :
When we are alone all these while
Doesn't we feel pain when we fall etc
Have our reaction to pain has decrease
Or is it because we have lost to the feel call love?
That's why we feel the pain

I want to fly and run till it hurts, sleep for awhile and speak no words" - Manic street preachers, Australia

2007-09-17T23:41:00.000+08:00

Start of A New Semester

School today was fine
New block, class and classmates
A good mixture of people
But this time guys are more in my class
Lots of China guys
Class was not as noisy as others
Damn quiet la
Problem statement was hard
That made me went bonkers
No time for gaming
Haiz..
All so hardworking
So must act like one
Even though I don't know some parts of it
Just try to do whatever I know
Presentation not too bad
End class about 4pm

Went to meet Jas and Li Ming after that
Eat dinner and went Ikea
As Li Ming was looking for some presents for her friends
Then chat a bit on Eng Chian
Eng Chian went MIA ( missing in action)
Both of them sms him
There was no reply
Haha =)
Hope to meet other ATS members soon
But not Steven
Oops =P

Band today
Busy day start again
Yeah!
Get to meet my Superman again
Yahoo!
Gotta sleep early
zZZZzzz

2007-09-09T22:03:00.000+08:00

RPWS Debut Concert, a Success
Enjoy myself as a player and so were the audience
I only can say that it was GREAT!
Practise for it since April
Hard work for all were pay off
Or though we were tired for all for the intensive practice we had for the concert
It's all worthwhile
So we have a week of break without band practice
Yeah!
Need to rest all
Still have to work even harder for the next upcoming events
Hope the Taiwan trip for the band this coming December will also be more successful
and a memorable one
Thanks to people who came to support us :
1. Boi boi
2. ATS ( anti-social ) peeps -
Eng Chian ( Chairman ) , Ming Han ( founder), Li Ming and Jasline

= (

Too busy for RPWS Concert that I did not go for my secondary school band camp
Look through Jas blog see their schedule
Interesting n fun band camp
I also wanne go
Too bad
Simply just busy with band
Sob sob
Miss ya peeps lots
Especially my beloved clarinet section (Sec 3s n 4s) and also the alumni
Will be back to visit you all this week if you all have any practises

YAHOO!
Still have a week of fun before school starts again
Holiday to me always seem so short
Busy busy me
Gotta do something about that one week
No wasting it

Band concert pieces and music still in my brain
Keep humming some of the pieces
Argh ! ! !
No more of it
Gonna do some brain washing
If not I'm going maddie soon
Maybe playing Silent hill do help bah
Off i go and play

2007-08-31T00:22:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! ! !

YEA!Past midnight and its your birthday today..haha =D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CRYSTAL !
You are miss by us okiee.. wahahah =D ( no need to envy Jasline de )
Gonna meet you
Don't be late
Don't wanne wait for you an hour before you appear
Be carefully also
Don't bang onto people while walking and sms-ing
Haha~

Give you a meaningful song for your birthday.
Hope you like it

2007-08-28T00:45:00.000+08:00

Just like the darkness (alone)

Night…
Time to relief stress
Time to enjoy the darkness
Time for relax

When one has no stress
They seem relax
Their smile is always the best
Hoping that the darkness will not end so fast

Sometimes …
Showing your true self
You will have the world by yourself
Listening to the surrounding
Chatting with them
That’s what I wish to do now

To W35M peeps:
Sad
Changing class in sem 2
Gonna miss you people v much
All very nice people
But changes is necessary in life
So bear with it
Hoping that my next class would be similar like now
1 hour of FUN (dota-ing)
1 hour of work
Please don’t give me a class which work at all times
People will be pissed off by me
Cos I never do work and keep playing
Presentation can present without doing much work
People will hate me
Complain will come
Wahaha…
Goodbye! Keep in touch

To Boi boi :
Thanks for the fun
Thanks for the chat
Thanks for missing me
Thanks for making my day
Thanks for your concern
Thanks for worrying for me
Thanks for being there for me
Thanks for checking on where I’m I
Thanks for tolerating all my nonsense
Thanks for your love for me
Thanks Boi boi lots!!

2007-08-17T23:07:00.000+08:00

Goodbyess

1. To my enterprise module faci (Rebecca Chin).
End of the 16 wks today is the last day seeing you

2. To YOU.
I should be happy but I'm not.
Even though its me who say goodbye to you
Now just feeling so sucky duno why
Hope you still look forward to the next gal who will walk into your life
Give it a glimpse of hope
Don't give up totally
Don't hurt yourself
Even it hurt so much that i left you
You did no wrong
Is I who cannot accept the fact that you left me so long aside for some time
Until recently we are back together
But the feel for you is different
Its to long that you left me that make you become part of my memory
Memory that is good and want it to stay
Your presence become nothing to me le
Live on
Be happy =)
Without me you also can make it de

3. To my ear plugs
Accompany go holiday on so many countries
Allow me to listen to my songs anywhere I want
Spoil now
Miss it
Even its just a normal ear plugs which can buy anywhere

So my emotion now is like the song below

刷牙我想哭洗脸我想哭
走路我想哭静止我想哭
出太阳我想哭起风我想哭
听歌我想哭看喜剧我想
我控制不住自己负担冭重的情绪
我拒绝面对结局沉重的问题我不想听
伱给的很多规矩说了很久的道理
却瞒不了我的伈
再压抑再压抑我快不行..
(兲摇地动昏天暗地)
有眼泪没眼泪
伱觉得我疯了
我瞬间耳鸣听不见伱们说的
我疯言我疯语眼泪让我瞎了
我哭我眼前乫界
原来快榮要用悲伤换的
可知不知道
伱莂在否认
我要的自由能不能够永生
可是我累了
我只好哭了
我像疯子的般不停的哭
我没有出路
伱也当我是个疯子我是个疯子

Extra:
To JL cousin:

Here your photo la

Make me search my house just for this pics of urs

Take it or leave it

2007-08-16T16:19:00.000+08:00

Rotting In the Library

End class at 2:50 today
Unable to go home
Cos having band later at 5:30
Argh!!!!
Need to wait for so long
Feeling like skipping band again
Slacking in library
Which is kind of bored
Lalalala~
Watching my animation tonight again.

While chatting with JL on msn he written this :
' True words are not necessarily beautiful. Beautiful words are not nessarily truthful '
Sort of trigger me to think of something.
What if one day the whole world are not be able to talk and express yourself in words for a day
What will it be?
.....

15 Aug

Meet up with boi
Talk and play games
Not too bad after all
Have fun
Yeah!!
Thanks lots for the day
You taught me something too
Hahaha =)

2007-08-10T13:40:00.001+08:00

Wa..so BUSY through the holiday soon ! ! ! *Yawn

Band timetable for holiday =(

See these! My holiday is ruin. Will I have a meaningful holiday rather than these?

Wish to meet up my friends and visit my sec sch band

With these intense practice, how am I going to do what I want.

Even though all these practices are prepare for upcoming events like:

1. Botanic Gardens performance

2. Lunchtime concert

3. Our Public concert

Have they think of the long hours which will tired all of us out?

Where are the welfare for us?

Long practice hours

Surely will make me doss off halfway through the practice/rehersal

Is like everyday must go la

I don't care le

Sure I going to pon one practice to go for test

I HATE IT ! ! !

Friends: Meet up with you all really soon. Hope all of you have the time out to play together or slack somewhere =)

Really cannot stop caring for you...I miss ya...=)

2007-08-05T00:32:00.000+08:00

Feel like placing my hp aside for a month
No msg receive
What for bring it out
Cos try it before without using hp for a month
No msg at all
I think I have been forgotten by people bah
Haiz... =(

No hp means :
1. Free and easy
2. Take my time to go home
3. No need people to ask where I'm I
4. Take control of my own time
5. Go home as and when I want ( whatever time I want)

Xinhui is still somewhere out there
Wishing to see a future ahead
which is so vague now
Reality just sucks
Is there a world of pure imagination
Maybe there is bah
When I day dream lo
Haha

2007-08-04T01:20:00.000+08:00

Yeah! Dad is back!
Sat down at the airport for our supper
He told mum that he wish to venture out
If so he would be back every 2 years
Mum was sad and kept silence
Dad is mentioning this for the second time
She was worried about us and dad
Cos the country dad going to venture is a wu lu wu lu country
Studies international school there? Good or bad?
These are all worries of mum

I'm not worry where I study
Cos I have thought of these before
Only worry I have is my sis
She is so young
Don't know what is happening
Doing things whatever ways she wants
No law and order
Argh ! ! !

Thinking of a better solution

Thanks SH for the yogurt ice cream you bought for me to cheer me up
Yeah!
Never cry that day la
Simply just tired
Eyes pain

2007-08-01T00:44:00.000+08:00

Happy Day ! ! !

Yeah! Today finally have the hot sun which i want. No windy and cold weather. No emo but HAPPY. =D

After school, no band so ask Jas out to play and also to accompany me. Walk the whole TM, slack at MacDonald so can use the wireless network there to play games. We play and chat until there was no battery left in my laptop then we go arcade to play. Play Daytona again cos its my favourite game there. Haha. Challenge with a little boy and i won so is playing with Jas also. Yeah! Quiet a long time since I go into arcade to play Daytona, skills still the same so good in the beginner want. Happy happy ! ! !

Really enjoying. Yeah!
Lalala~ lala~la~ la~

2007-07-27T00:05:00.000+08:00

July 26
Yeah! today whole of W3 was like everyone wearing formal dressing to school due to today enterprise module problem 13 ' Impress me'. So fun lo. Everyone in the class was like asking each other to take pictures. The presentation today for my team was like so hack care la cos it was easy. Took photos with my friends so were the other classes. Standing outside the class and use the blue walls as the photos backdrop. Have some fun today...

Btw i download dota and counter strike from Gibson's hard disk. Yeah! can play le. Wosh~

Jas saw your recent post and I do agree with you that everyone is not in good shape. Missed everyone and everything especially people I'm close with. Happy people = happy life = happy friends.

July 24

Thanks 'Aunty' Jasline for the chat in msn. Really need that chat so much even though I can analyse it myself. But I'm just simply mentally break down during that week. Having sollow so many things into myself but haven spit out a word (bottling it to myself). Jas~ I will try to leave up to your motto: KAI XIN JIU HAO.Things don't always turn out to be what you want in life. Say I have complicated mindset? Hmm...maybe bah cos i think a lot even during meals. That's bad for me.

July 22 to 23

Listening to Linkin Park albums to sleep. Wahaha..People will start to ask me: You can sleep with that music? Power! Actually, not power at all loh. Listening to any music I also can sleep de.But there is one genre of music that will really disturb my sleeping. Not going to tell you peeps. Haha.

July 21

Changkat Band Investiture. Great to see everyone back 'home'. For the alumni, great mind think alike because almost all the alumni wearing black that day. It was kinda of funny lo as many asking why the alumni so black...haha

To all peeps who got promoted:Do your job well worx as choosing for your post was not an easy task. Did not manage to get to play my secondary school days 'Bao Bei' clarinet. WHO TAKE CASE 9 CLARINET HOME TO PRACTICE ??? SOB...SOB...really missed my clarinet. I can even remember the serial number for the clarinet I use lo. See...how much I cherish my 'bao bei' even though I only use it for 4 years only. Haiz...

My fun and memorable part is that the alumni and the graduating senior play Blue Rigde Saga which is our 12 April 2005 SYF piece. Got a bronze for it and it was our first year participating in it. A day not to be forgotten by us! The feel was back again and I make some mistakes to it. We did not practice much together but is the feel we have that bond us together to make the music sound alright.

To clarinet juniors: Cherish the time you have now with the graduating seniors. All of you really add laughter to the section. All the laughter were lost when seniors were gone batch by batch. Cherish it too through your days in band too. Sit properly too!

To Faizul (once a member in the clarinet section) now in trumpet : The post you wanted for long come to you le. Your dream since sec 1 and you everytime told me about it in msn. Haha..Band Commander of 2007. Effort finally pay off. Try to do a good job even though I know its hard cos I experience it before. Do your Best! Impossible is nothing. It is also a test of your limit you have in you .

Love Changkat Band lots ... Hope to play with you all for other school events soon!

2007-07-24T00:16:00.000+08:00

Fault I find in me

Being good is a fault

Being childish is a fault

Being caring for someone is a fault

Being honest is a fault

All my faults that make people around me suffer

Bye peeps

I will keep all comments to myself

N do some stupid stuff to relieve myself

Alone in middle of nowhere

Self declare mia

My superman still the same words to u:

Take care n get well soon. Don't tired urself out, give urself a break which you deserve it.

The Pain Is KILLING!!

2007-07-22T11:10:00.000+08:00

My ignorant can't stop the thinking you have for me

I still hold some feel for you

But I don't wish to continue

Your words hold me back the other time

This time I have completely given up

Even if I'm not happy

My life still need to continue

I may not be happy

I'm contented with whatever is given

Chance don't come by easily

Holding to every chance and hope I have

Likewise giving up things that will make me mentally tired

The strong faced of me can take no more

I just wish to reveal myself

Even it post a danger to me

But at least I'm not mentally tired

Sleeping is the best to put things aside for a while

Problem still lie there

Waiting for me to give it life or death sentence

I'm lost now

What sentence should I give to the problem now

I really don't know

Wish that I walk on streets

Someone to knock me down

Being unconscious

Sleep all I want

Till the problem dissolve on its own into the air

Tink...it has dissolve

Then from that point I would wake

Brand new world for me

*really with no clear answer now.You holding me back again with your words,tats why I don't like to talk to you on phone.My answer to myself still firmly stand,with no regret with what i had make.But you still insist that there is hope between us and tats the obstacle we face. I really don't know the answer. With you I don't think I have reveal much about myself, giving in to you is what I give to you. Have you see the childish me? Have you see the me tat can do things so stupidly? Have you see the happy me? Have you see the many many me? I think you have only see the contented me and talking to the sad me most of the time. Sick me still need to be strong even I feel so weak all over. Covering my sickness and not saying about it, just like normal talking to my friends. No one realised I'm sick cos I remain cheerful. What a good cover I can give myself !?

2007-07-17T23:40:00.000+08:00

Well, have been taking lots of medicine this few weeks and cutting down things which i like to eat. But, don't seem to recover. Somehow I feel even worse after taking the medicine though it is suppose to be the other way round but whatever i gotta kill all this 'virus' in me. Mum feels sadden seeing me in this state cause I keep coughing the whole day. My weight also has decrease by 1kg from my previous 2 weighing very long time ago. Buying jeans and long pants are the worst for me as I always buy the smallest size in their shop. I can even wear the largest size jeans or pants in the kids section la.

Today, while taking bus home from school, the bus actually stopped in the middle of the expressway suddenly. Then is like Oh no what happen to the bus. When it restart again, the whole bus did not have any air con. Sway la. Everyone is like siting in the 'sauna' as everyone is perspiring. When I alight, my whole back was wet as its too hot in the bus. It only felt cooling after I had alight the bus. But no air con on the bus also good so that my nose will not block haha =D

Thinking of you. Have a good rest/sleep. Goodnite

2007-07-16T18:00:00.000+08:00

Haha..now blogging outside my house. So cool haha. Parents not home yet and I have no keys so had to sit outside the house. Luckily, I have my laptop to accompany me.

Today, computing and mathematics module very bad. Don't understand a single thing and the worksheet was not of any guide. Useless worksheet! I don't care to do the worksheet anymore and kept pestering my faci asking her how to do, what to do, what is this term, what is that term. She explained the histogram also not clear, everything asked us to find out. If she gave us the answer, I don't think we need to do any presentation today.

During 2nd break most of my classmates left the class, left 14 people only. My team PowerPoint slides also like shit only have the definition for the math terms. Just don't see any links to the problem statement for the day, although there were a few histogram up. Still very vague so asked other teams how they were doing. The answer was....almost all of us were stuck somewhere but still continued on to do. Even the smartest person in my team also don't know how to do (which is say to be the faci 'husband' =D because he very easily get 'A' grade for this module. The faci also favour him a lot so when we present the faci will listen attentively to our presentation )

3rd meeting, die le. Never do much yet but still try our best. Tell the faci,all the team presentation very bad cannot make it de, just go through her presentation will do. She said cannot because every of our effort counts so just do it. End class early.

This Sat
1. Secondary band investiture ( surely going back to visit them and sir asked the alumni to play our 2005 SYF song ( Blue Rigde Saga ) for the juniors) Going to practice that. Very long never play already. Anticipate to meet all of you!!!! Last time went back never see all my clarinet seniors only saw the juniors, I felt so left out and sad. But luckily have some familiar faces in the flute section and I saw Crystal also. Happy!!!! Join flute section for that day.

Good luck for all people this Sat for the investiture! Wish to get the post you all want to be. Don't because of not suitable post quit band ah..Try to talk to Sir about it as every post given to you, all the members know that you can do it and Sir also know that you have the ability to do it. Whatever post given to you , give it a shot. You don't know where your ability lies until you try.
Good luck!

I know you can't help missing me so I will think of you more often also. I will try to tag you more often too

Yeah! Hommie now.

2007-07-10T16:21:00.000+08:00

Lalalala~ Haha
Blogging while other teams are presenting their PowerPoint slides
Very rude of me hor... I know lor
But no choice I'm bored just waiting for faci 6P which is more important to me

Today problem statement is 'Be Reasonable' which seem easy in the first place but after taking out all the key points like what is sound, unsound, valid and invalid arguments. It is difficult and it make me confuse too then the 2nd meeting the faci asked what our team know, I never speak a word cos i don't understand even though my team has explain to me before that. After the 2nd meeting, the faci told me I'm quiet today and wants me to talk more in the 3rd meeting. So i go look for lots of research on the net so that i understand and speak in my own words. Yeah! really talk a lot in the presentation because i know my slides. Happy for myself. Haha =D

Last few weeks, lots of things happened. But just not going to list them down. Firstly, was sick then....Listing them all down will cause me sadness again =[ + mentally tiredness ( think to much already)
So I don't care anymore! Chunk it aside to make it rot there! Let the happy me take away the sadness i have yeah!
Thanks friends for leaving me alone which allow me to calm myself down and think properly of my problem and also swallowing all my lame ideas i had given for the day problem statement.
My Superman thank you to you also worx ! Need to listen to all my 'rubbish' again. Hard on you le. If you have any 'rubbish' also can throw to me, i help you to swallow it all =P

2007-07-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

不断地把自己逼进死角。
不断地认识自己。
不断隐藏。

2007-06-24T23:16:00.000+08:00

Went to surf the net to print the application for the watercolour competition

Look through some of their requirements

Found that their age limit to 18 years old

So that means i can still join

Haha =D

But when i continue reading it through

I found that every drawing i submit i will be unable to get it back

It will totally be their property

Sad

Maybe the drawing i submitted is the best that i draw among my other drawings

Which i like the most

But for competition what can i do

NOTHING....but just take photographs of all the drawing i have drawn

As i do not know which want the teacher may chose for competition

So i decide to post all my drawings here (latest drawing on top)

2007-06-21T19:00:00.000+08:00

Sick le

Didn't go school for today even i have my test

Have fever and flu since last night

Went to see a doctor today morning

He said i have serious flu

so increase the medicine i eat as I'm resting home today

Don't feel like eating anything

they are tasteless

Eeeek..

The only thing i can eat is bread with honey and milk

HONEY! Yeah!

The only food that taste sweet in mouth when sick

Sleep a lot today

Fever comes and go

Walking like floating

Look through the day module title

Don't understand a single thing at all

But i can do the quiz but not the RJ

Damn it!

Got to ask my friends in order to do my RJ

Need to arrange time with my faci

so she can teach me on it

No band for me also

Can't think well at all

Thanks my superman for your sms of concern

I will get well soon de

Haha =P

Bought A Book

2007-06-17T23:22:00.000+08:00

Yeah ! Finally found his book in Orchard Kinokuniya bookshop and it is the lastest and the last ook on the shelves. Guo Jing Ming book ( I5land vol 8). His books so dificult to find in Singapore, need to order it. After 6 months, you then go and collect it. Luciky, let me found it today so happy =>

Read through a few pages found out that he re-write the book Rush To The Dead Summer. I so excited as that is the first book i read and i bought overseas and get scolding from my parents due to the small prints that will spoil my eyes. The story line also very good but the sad thing is that it did not have an ending to it. Wish that the re-write version will have the ending and i'm able to get hold of the book when it is out in market.

Another text from the book also caught my eyes due to the dull graphics and the words in there which was written by hansey. He got the ideas from the lyric <> by Echostream. The text is below.

Then we'll danced in this dark room

I can't escape from here
The darkness is eating my mind
I don't know how to tell you that
You don't know why

I can't escape from here
The silence is eating my wound
Before the sun is cold
I gotta go

Morning dew's a sign for flying away
Now it's time to go to find your way

I forget how to touch my heart
My body's floating away
Snow is falling down on my face like trying to hide my existence

Don't hurt me again with your fake smile
Just kill me

When i found another interesting text from the story then i continue
End here...school tomorrow

2007-06-11T23:05:00.000+08:00

Weather is so hot recently cannot take the heat any longer. Don't feel like going somewhere far from my house because I will melt once I step out under the sun. So I went for a swim * Splash! Here I come * Haha. I went in the evening so its not that hot after all . Enjoy myself so much. Very long never go for a swim already. ( Wish one day the swimming pool just outside my house ) Haha. But its impossible as i don't want mosquitoes to come after me to suck my blood. Ahahahah~ mosquitoes coming....

End here
Lalalalala~

2007-06-09T00:26:00.000+08:00

I WILL TRY HARDER TO MAKE MYSELF HAPPY EVERYDAY ! ! ! !

TRY TO MAKE MYSELF :
1. NO state of depression
2. NO sadness
3. DON'T feel like crying
4. DON'T think RUBBISH!

AT LAST....My SUPERMAN will always be there for me
The vow that i will remember
Don't need to remind me about it...haha =P

My 2 Weeks

2007-06-05T23:57:00.000+08:00

2 weeks of holiday! ! ! Why so short....haha.
So many things for me to do
Must PLAN ! ! !
Must spend 2 weeks wisely
If not there it goes the two weeks
Down the drain
As I have done nothing at all

Lalalalala...my two weeks..my 2 weeks
Haha =D
End here

2007-06-04T00:26:00.000+08:00

I just want to numb my feel

I don't want to hurt others anymore

I feel the pain inside

And so do you

Every message at the end of it

You left me with your insecure and sadness

I feel you too

But sorry

Time don't allow me to have more time with you

Due to my busy schedule

That why i chose to let you go

Back to your freedom

Where you are free to chose

Friends as we now

Alone as we are

Back to before

From that point onwards

Things changes

Everything back to stranger

And no turning back