July 26 Yeah! today whole of W3 was like everyone wearing formal dressing to school due to today enterprise module problem 13 ' Impress me'. So fun lo. Everyone in the class was like asking each other to take pictures. The presentation today for my team was like so hack care la cos it was easy. Took photos with my friends so were the other classes. Standing outside the class and use the blue walls as the photos backdrop. Have some fun today...
Btw i download dota and counter strike from Gibson's hard disk. Yeah! can play le. Wosh~
Jas saw your recent post and I do agree with you that everyone is not in good shape. Missed everyone and everything especially people I'm close with. Happy people = happy life = happy friends.
July 24
Thanks 'Aunty' Jasline for the chat in msn. Really need that chat so much even though I can analyse it myself. But I'm just simply mentally break down during that week. Having sollow so many things into myself but haven spit out a word (bottling it to myself). Jas~ I will try to leave up to your motto: KAI XIN JIU HAO.Things don't always turn out to be what you want in life. Say I have complicated mindset? Hmm...maybe bah cos i think a lot even during meals. That's bad for me.
July 22 to 23
Listening to Linkin Park albums to sleep. Wahaha..People will start to ask me: You can sleep with that music? Power! Actually, not power at all loh. Listening to any music I also can sleep de.But there is one genre of music that will really disturb my sleeping. Not going to tell you peeps. Haha.
July 21
Changkat Band Investiture. Great to see everyone back 'home'. For the alumni, great mind think alike because almost all the alumni wearing black that day. It was kinda of funny lo as many asking why the alumni so black...haha
To all peeps who got promoted:Do your job well worx as choosing for your post was not an easy task. Did not manage to get to play my secondary school days 'Bao Bei' clarinet. WHO TAKE CASE 9 CLARINET HOME TO PRACTICE ??? SOB...SOB...really missed my clarinet. I can even remember the serial number for the clarinet I use lo. See...how much I cherish my 'bao bei' even though I only use it for 4 years only. Haiz...
My fun and memorable part is that the alumni and the graduating senior play Blue Rigde Saga which is our 12 April 2005 SYF piece. Got a bronze for it and it was our first year participating in it. A day not to be forgotten by us! The feel was back again and I make some mistakes to it. We did not practice much together but is the feel we have that bond us together to make the music sound alright.
To clarinet juniors: Cherish the time you have now with the graduating seniors. All of you really add laughter to the section. All the laughter were lost when seniors were gone batch by batch. Cherish it too through your days in band too. Sit properly too!
To Faizul (once a member in the clarinet section) now in trumpet : The post you wanted for long come to you le. Your dream since sec 1 and you everytime told me about it in msn. Haha..Band Commander of 2007. Effort finally pay off. Try to do a good job even though I know its hard cos I experience it before. Do your Best! Impossible is nothing. It is also a test of your limit you have in you .
Love Changkat Band lots ... Hope to play with you all for other school events soon!
Been Here @ 12:05 AM
♥ Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Fault I find in me
Being good is a fault
Being childish is a fault
Being caring for someone is a fault
Being honest is a fault
All my faults that make people around me suffer
Bye peeps
I will keep all comments to myself
N do some stupid stuff to relieve myself
Alone in middle of nowhere
Self declare mia
My superman still the same words to u:
Take care n get well soon. Don't tired urself out, give urself a break which you deserve it.
Been Here @ 12:16 AM
♥ Sunday, July 22, 2007
My ignorant can't stop the thinking you have for me
I still hold some feel for you
But I don't wish to continue
Your words hold me back the other time
This time I have completely given up
Even if I'm not happy
My life still need to continue
I may not be happy
I'm contented with whatever is given
Chance don't come by easily
Holding to every chance and hope I have
Likewise giving up things that will make me mentally tired
The strong faced of me can take no more
I just wish to reveal myself
Even it post a danger to me
But at least I'm not mentally tired
Sleeping is the best to put things aside for a while
Problem still lie there
Waiting for me to give it life or death sentence
I'm lost now
What sentence should I give to the problem now
I really don't know
Wish that I walk on streets
Someone to knock me down
Being unconscious
Sleep all I want
Till the problem dissolve on its own into the air
Tink...it has dissolve
Then from that point I would wake
Brand new world for me
*really with no clear answer now.You holding me back again with your words,tats why I don't like to talk to you on phone.My answer to myself still firmly stand,with no regret with what i had make.But you still insist that there is hope between us and tats the obstacle we face. I really don't know the answer. With you I don't think I have reveal much about myself, giving in to you is what I give to you. Have you see the childish me? Have you see the me tat can do things so stupidly? Have you see the happy me? Have you see the many many me? I think you have only see the contented me and talking to the sad me most of the time. Sick me still need to be strong even I feel so weak all over. Covering my sickness and not saying about it, just like normal talking to my friends. No one realised I'm sick cos I remain cheerful. What a good cover I can give myself !?
Been Here @ 11:10 AM
♥ Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Well, have been taking lots of medicine this few weeks and cutting down things which i like to eat. But, don't seem to recover. Somehow I feel even worse after taking the medicine though it is suppose to be the other way round but whatever i gotta kill all this 'virus' in me. Mum feels sadden seeing me in this state cause I keep coughing the whole day. My weight also has decrease by 1kg from my previous 2 weighing very long time ago. Buying jeans and long pants are the worst for me as I always buy the smallest size in their shop. I can even wear the largest size jeans or pants in the kids section la.
Today, while taking bus home from school, the bus actually stopped in the middle of the expressway suddenly. Then is like Oh no what happen to the bus. When it restart again, the whole bus did not have any air con. Sway la. Everyone is like siting in the 'sauna' as everyone is perspiring. When I alight, my whole back was wet as its too hot in the bus. It only felt cooling after I had alight the bus. But no air con on the bus also good so that my nose will not block haha =D
Thinking of you. Have a good rest/sleep. Goodnite
Been Here @ 11:40 PM
♥ Monday, July 16, 2007
Haha..now blogging outside my house. So cool haha. Parents not home yet and I have no keys so had to sit outside the house. Luckily, I have my laptop to accompany me.
Today, computing and mathematics module very bad. Don't understand a single thing and the worksheet was not of any guide. Useless worksheet! I don't care to do the worksheet anymore and kept pestering my faci asking her how to do, what to do, what is this term, what is that term. She explained the histogram also not clear, everything asked us to find out. If she gave us the answer, I don't think we need to do any presentation today.
During 2nd break most of my classmates left the class, left 14 people only. My team PowerPoint slides also like shit only have the definition for the math terms. Just don't see any links to the problem statement for the day, although there were a few histogram up. Still very vague so asked other teams how they were doing. The answer was....almost all of us were stuck somewhere but still continued on to do. Even the smartest person in my team also don't know how to do (which is say to be the faci 'husband' =D because he very easily get 'A' grade for this module. The faci also favour him a lot so when we present the faci will listen attentively to our presentation )
3rd meeting, die le. Never do much yet but still try our best. Tell the faci,all the team presentation very bad cannot make it de, just go through her presentation will do. She said cannot because every of our effort counts so just do it. End class early.
This Sat 1. Secondary band investiture ( surely going back to visit them and sir asked the alumni to play our 2005 SYF song ( Blue Rigde Saga ) for the juniors) Going to practice that. Very long never play already. Anticipate to meet all of you!!!! Last time went back never see all my clarinet seniors only saw the juniors, I felt so left out and sad. But luckily have some familiar faces in the flute section and I saw Crystal also. Happy!!!! Join flute section for that day.
Good luck for all people this Sat for the investiture! Wish to get the post you all want to be. Don't because of not suitable post quit band ah..Try to talk to Sir about it as every post given to you, all the members know that you can do it and Sir also know that you have the ability to do it. Whatever post given to you , give it a shot. You don't know where your ability lies until you try. Good luck!
I know you can't help missing me so I will think of you more often also. I will try to tag you more often too
Yeah! Hommie now.
Been Here @ 6:00 PM
♥ Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Lalalala~ Haha Blogging while other teams are presenting their PowerPoint slides Very rude of me hor... I know lor But no choice I'm bored just waiting for faci 6P which is more important to me
Today problem statement is 'Be Reasonable' which seem easy in the first place but after taking out all the key points like what is sound, unsound, valid and invalid arguments. It is difficult and it make me confuse too then the 2nd meeting the faci asked what our team know, I never speak a word cos i don't understand even though my team has explain to me before that. After the 2nd meeting, the faci told me I'm quiet today and wants me to talk more in the 3rd meeting. So i go look for lots of research on the net so that i understand and speak in my own words. Yeah! really talk a lot in the presentation because i know my slides. Happy for myself. Haha =D
Last few weeks, lots of things happened. But just not going to list them down. Firstly, was sick then....Listing them all down will cause me sadness again =[ + mentally tiredness ( think to much already) So I don't care anymore! Chunk it aside to make it rot there! Let the happy me take away the sadness i have yeah! Thanks friends for leaving me alone which allow me to calm myself down and think properly of my problem and also swallowing all my lame ideas i had given for the day problem statement. My Superman thank you to you also worx ! Need to listen to all my 'rubbish' again. Hard on you le. If you have any 'rubbish' also can throw to me, i help you to swallow it all =P
Been Here @ 4:21 PM
♥ Sunday, July 1, 2007
不断地把自己逼进死角。 不断地认识自己。 不断隐藏。
Been Here @ 11:56 PM
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Name: Tan Xin Hui
Birthday: 29 March '89
School: Republic Polytechnic
